I've discovered the joys of tumblr. Moving right along... Though I'll miss lj. Anyway. I'll still keep this for the communities.

No soul can really be at rest until it has given up all dependence on everything else and has been forced to depend on the Lord alone. As long as our expectation is on other things, nothing but disappointment awaits us. Feelings may change, and will change, with our changing circumstances; doctrine and dogmas may be upset; Christian work may come to naught; prayers may seem to lose their fervency; promises may seem to fail; everything that we have believed in or depended upon may seem to be swept away, and only God is left, just God, the bare God... simply and only God.

This, then, is what I mean by God being enough. It is that we find in Him, the fact of His existence and of His character, all that we can possibly want for everything.

God is, must be, our answer to every question and every cry of need. If there is any lack in the One who has undertaken to save us, nothing supplementary we can do will avail to make it up; and if there is no lack in Him, then He of Himself and in Himself is enough.

- Hannah Whitall Smith

Nowadays I get quite lazy dressing up, especially uni days with only one hour lectures. Why bother dressing up to go to school for just one or two hours to sit in a lecture hall where no one really bothers what you're wearing? Haha. So the past half a semester I must say I was pretty proud of myself for not going shopping except for 1 day.

But. Spring is here (if not in Melbourne weather, then at least in stores)! Love the colours and florals...



And I really like this boyfriend jacket... I wanna buyyy...

Back from Gold Coast... I don't know what else to say except that it was reallyyyyyyyy goooooooood. Really very enjoyable. It's so much more laidback and relaxed than Melbourne and Sydney, more fun too... I think it's possible the best place in Aust to tour. And I think that's where all the good looking Aussies are. Seriously. Hahah not just the people at the beach, even the fathers at the theme parks are good looking.

Now that I'm back, I must carry out my promise to study hard for the exams coming soon.

I think I must seem to like moving house... Most probably going to move again end of this year, for just half a year before moving yet again. Oh wells.

Was feeling a bit nostalgic, went to read my previous blog posts...

I think I thought a lot more last year and the year before that... Recently all I've been talking about is shows and complaining about uni. Aiy. Maybe I need to watch less shows, maybe they've become some type of drug, numbing my mind. Ah well.

Reposting some quotes here now, just to remind myself again:

"THE IRONY OF LOVE...
is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right, & finding out that you love someone right after that person has walked out of your life. Sometimes you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them, just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, letting go is one way of expressing how much they love a person, but for others it's holding on to that special feeling as long as possible before it fades away. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love; love is always present, it's just that one was being loved too much & the other wasn't being loved enough. We all know that the heart is the centre of the body, but it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right."
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"There are many times we think we love You well, O God. But upon hearing Your call to love You with all our heart, and all our mind, and all our strength, we confess that our love for You is a diluted love, made insipid and flat by lesser loyalties and a divided heart. Our love seems pure only for brief moments; soon our affections are drawn away. How easily our devotion dies. Forgive us; in deep mercy spare us, despite our lost first love for You; in grace rekindle our love for You in seeing anew Jesus’ love for us. Amen."

Sometimes the simple Sunday school songs say it best...

Happiness is the Lord
Happiness is to know the Saviour,
Living a life within His favour,
Having a change in my behaviour,
Happiness is the Lord.

Happiness is a new creation,
Jesus and me in close relation,
Having a part in His salvation,
Happiness is the Lord.

Real joy is mine, no matter if teardrops start;
I've found the secret, it's Jesus in my heart!

Happiness is to be forgiven,
Living a life that's worth the living,
Taking a trip that leads to Heaven,
Happiness is the Lord,
Happiness is the Lord!



And a cool jazzed up piano version of it.

how can i stand here with You and not be moved by You?
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Time passes so fast, it's almost time to start studying for the exams again. Time to start spending more time in the library again. I can't wait to go back though. 2 more months. Yeay.

I half regret not learning golf in the past... now it seems really relaxing to play golf. Sign of getting old? Haha. This hols I think I shall go and learn. I was thinking of going for a hospital attachment, but now I think I'll volunteer with Action for Aids instead. Hopefully I can help with some of the clinical stuff as well.

Sigh... so fast thinking of the hols when I still have 2 more months to go. Will try to enjoy these 2 months. At least we're done with neuro already. YES. Hopefully endocrine will be nicer to me.

But what is the sense in forever speculating what might have happened had such and such a moment turned out differently?
While it is all very well to talk of 'turning points', one can surely only recognise such moments in retrospect. Naturally, when one looks back to such instances today, they may indeed take the appearance of being crucial, precious moments in one's life, but of course, at the time, this was not the impression one had.
Rather, it was as though one had available a never-ending number of days, months, years in which to sort out the vagaries of one's relationship... an infinite number of further opportunities in which to remedy the effect of this or that misunderstanding. There was surely nothing to indicate at the time that such evidently small incidents would render whole dreams forever irredeemable.

- Kazuo Ishiguro, The Remains of the Day (paragraphs my own)
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Just vacuumed my room today and it was clean for about one day. Hair on the toilet floor accumulates so fast, it makes me wonder sometimes what's the use of vacuuming, when I've to do it again so soon. Hahah. But anyway. I like seeing my room so neat and clean.

Hello September, I've been waiting for you. September means spring, and spring means pretty flowers, yummy mangoes and warmth. It means I'm close to finishing another academic year, 1/3 way through uni, just like that. Is working something to look forward to though?

Maybe I should perhaps make a list of things I want to accomplish within a certain time... instead of just living day to day. Before the days/months/years go by too fast like this year did.

Just started watching Hana Yori Dango 2 (Jap version) after the 1st one... I must say this time it seems a lot more drama, less comedy, and much sadder (at least, in the beginning. I spoil my own shows - if not, I'd never be able to control myself watching half or one episode only per day).

And I'm so looking forward to go back! Absolutely cannot wait. I've had enough of neuro already. Most people find it interesting. I only like the psych aspect of it. I'm almost definitely not going to go further into neuro.

There's so much I know I must do now, but I just feel like sitting on the floor, back against my bed, and stare out the window, doing nothing.

There's so much more I want to say, but. Maybe not here, not now.

Saw this on my friend's fb page and thought some points were so apt. Just for laughs. (I edited some parts.)

How medicine is like a wife/husband
1. Sometimes there's the good
2. Sometimes (usually) there's the bad
3. It drains your finances, energy & emotions
4. If you break up, you end up with nothing, and a mountain of debt
5. People go to great lengths to get into one.
6. There is a hell lot of work to be done
7. The work never ends
8. Sometimes, people end up with them because their parents pressure them into it.
9. People who are in it yearn for the freedom, while the people outside are trying to get in
10. It usually stays with you for life (except for those who divorce and those doctors who strike rich on other stuff)
11. You have to spend time with it every night
12. Sometimes till the wee hours of the morning
13. All people go in with the idea that its the best thing that ever happened to them
14. Your friends laugh at you when you tell them how much time you have to spend with it.
15. The singapore government is trying to encourage both - HAHAHA
16. Everytime you get irritated with it, you end up on the losing end. (okay this is abit difficult to understand, i guess when people get irritated with medicine, they tend to fail their exams, which makes things worse)
17. Sometimes its just so freaking hard to figure out what the other person is saying
18. Everytime you put ur hands up and say "THAT'S IT @!$@# IM GIVING UP". there's almost a 100% chance you'll go back to it
19. You can never look at another girl/boy/profession again.
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A bit of what I'm feeling now. Anyway. Must go study now for the test on Monday.

I am so tempted to watch another episode of my tvb drama but no... i have to study... going to kick myself off the com now. NOW.